you're a mystery yourself

Friday, January 16, 2009

2:52 PM

My last entry for this blog.
You sounded happy when you asked me about him.
You even teased me that he's my prince charming.
You even bugged me when will I will be together with him.
Now I had moved on as what you told me to and now you turned the tables around and sounded like a pathetic victim.
After all these years I still do not know what's in your mind and whether do you really mean those words you told me to do.
I want to move on and I have moved on.
So please just move on too.
I don't want to argue anymore because there is no meaning in it and if I continue fighting with you,I am no different from you or a pathetic loser.

&the beauty.

10:47 PM

Today I realized I had done something terribly wrong.
I accidentally over-write someone's work.
I was surprised senior did not scold me at all.
I was even more surprised that the person CRIED NON STOP.
I thought she has to do alot of work and my friend in the end told me she had re-do within an hour.
She seemed to detest me and I'm sure she's gonna take her revenge on me.
We did not speak to each other for the whole day.
I know I'm in the wrong but well...just blame on my blurness and her swayness.
Felt guilty and at times I felt that it's her karma too because she had also created much trouble for me too.

Moron boasted at his work area that he's gonna treat my friend and bring he r out to celebrate birthday.
However, if you were to hear from my friend's side of the story, none of these things happen at all. Apparently, he had only spend 1 hour with her on her birthday.
I don't know what lame excuse he gave her this time but what I heard was he had some late night supper with his cousins and friends.
I could tell from the look of my friend,she was utterly disappointed.
Seriously, I don't know how to advise her already.
She seems happy for now which I do not know whether is she trying hard to be happy or truly are.
All I could say that the moron is really heartless and selfish and my friend is just unlucky to meet him.

Updated news of old ti kuo: He has been transferred to night shift instead Sweetie Suz and I will be seeing less of him.
However, the two concubines are still there bitching around and staring at us for no reasons.
One good example, I was like busily doing my work when suddenly at the corner of my eye I sensed that someone is staring at me and when I turned I saw two bloody big black panda eyes staring at me. (She use black pencil to trace around her circumference of her big eyes.)
Seriously I don't understand why they like staring at us.
It's not as if we have some weird stuff on us,or we are naked. LOL!
I should be staring at them instead.
One look like the muffets the green frog and the other has big boobs.
Perhaps I look weird to them too. LOL!

Anyway, pictures of the Chinese Garden taken last last sunday and ShuHui's mini bday celeb!
Badtz badtz maru is way way too cute!!!

&the beauty.

8:30 PM

Today's work was rather shocking to me as I did not expect senior to cry till her eyes were swollen.
The pressure on her is surely pushing her to her limits.
It's suppose to be her off day today but apparently due to unexpected hiccups she has to come to work or else our team will suffer severe consequences.
Who the fark will ever have the mood to work when you should be relaxing.
I don't understand how people can be so selfish and think for themselves.
Maybe I'm jumping into conclusions but seriously,the dirty clues left behind is very suspicious.
I can't help myself but feel mad.
I was like cursing all the way in the office.

Meanwhile,my colleague is facing some unstable situations in her fresh relationship.
From the start, I seriously think that the guy is at fault but no matter how much words we said is unable to penetrate her mind.
I won't blame her because love is blind and I can feel that her love for him is really very deep and it's really very saddening to see how the guy treats her in return.
Some people are just morons who carry on day by day with no aims in life and yet still they have people showering them with love and yet they take it for granted.
One day,these people will soon regret and wake up to realize that they really have been a dumbasshole for a long time.
Haha. I'm really very tulan.

Last but not least, I hereby present you Su-Su-Ma-Ma-Shop.
Su-Su-Ma-Ma-Shop is located opposite of red light district.(Because we are sitting opposite of old Ti Kuo Pek and his concubines.Haha.)
Btw, old Ti Kuo Pek just boasted that he is actually a HK pilot and he's just having his vacation so he's temporarily working here. OMFG!
Wat a big fat liar!So,his vacation is awfully long huh.(7 years...)

&the beauty.

11:31 PM

I sincerly wanna thank all those that made an effort to visit me. :)
I am sick of porridge!
I am even more sick of KAYA TOAST AND MILO!
The mere thought of it make me nauseas.
Well... I did not expect to meditate in the hospital and I have made up my mind.

I'm sorry to hurt you.
Truly from my heart.

&the beauty.

9:07 PM

Finally I'm slackin at home and using the com after about a month! LOL.
I've been so preoccupied with so many outings and work.
Work has not been a smooth flow for me.
There's so much problems in my stupid accounts that I'm handling.
I dunno whether izzit I'm blur or stupid or I'm just plain unlucky.
Perhaps all.
There always at least one problem a day that make me feel so stress up and my day is ruined.
Sickening sia.
Lucky got Sweetie Suz beside me.
We always talk crap and do crazy actions to brighten our stressful working days.
Today joke of the day at work= Miss maid cum Frog walk in such a werido way that Suz tried to imitate her. OMG!!! Its damn hilarious!!! We were like laughing out damn loud in the toilet.
Oh in case u are wondering who the heck is Miss maid cum Frog, she is a flirtatious women who loves to hanky panky with our No.1 lau ti kuo pek in our office. Just imagine a typical maid face who also resembles a frog. LOL!!!
Suz and I have tons of coded names for almost everyone.
Yea so you guys will be hearing more of them soon. Hahaha.
Been working there for like 3 months and I feel like as if I have work there for 1 year.
Time actually flies very fast for my case because I have tons of work to do everyday,just that politics at work is getting rather serious each day and I'm just afraid it might turned out very nasty one fine day.
So for the past few weeks,I've been slaving at work and I don't have much of a life either.
Although it's been only a matter of few weeks,my life has just turned upside down and inside out.
I'm now facing a phase which I did not expect that I will ever face it again and as each day passed by,my life becomes even more complexed.
If anyone asked me whether am I happy, I think I'm unable to answer it.
I don't feel happy or sad. I feel so empty in me.
I've been blinded yet again by sudden emotions and impulse decisions are the result of it.
I think I really really have to sit down at home and meditate one whole day without any distractions. Maybe at the end of the day I can be enlightened and hopefully a wise choice can be made.

Somehow somewhere I think of yr cute face and my heart will ache for you...

&the beauty.

9:56 PM

I have 2 great weekends so far...
National day went to celebrate my granny's 70th birthday and JY's bday.
Had buffet dinner and the food is GOOD.
Headed to MOS for JY's bday.
Kaya and I had a fun time spotting drunken pple doing foolish stuff. LOL!
Last friday, my kaya gave me a surprise night picnic.
He took so much effort in getting all the stuff and creating the atmosphere...
The weather was damn cooling and the moon was so BRIGHT!!!
Hearing those classic love songs and preparing the chocolate foundue together with him make me fall for him once again...
Sunday went to flea market with the sweeties.
It was raining heavily and only Cheryl brought an umbrella.
Kt and I decided to walk towards the car and pick them up.
The most shocking thing is, when I opened Cheryl's umbrella, Kt and I stunned for a moment.
The umbrella appears to be capable of only covering a primary school kid. -.-!!!
It was the most PUNNY umbrella I've seen so far.
Anyway, we were desperate and we decided to go with it.

I luv my Kaya! =)

&the beauty.

8:37 PM

I dunno what's going on in my life now.
I seriously dunno what I want.
I'm afraid I really make the wrong choice and regret for my whole life.
I'm really torn apart...
I hope I will see the light in my heart soon...

I love u..

What the heck is farkin wrong wif me.

&the beauty.